The Inagural.

Well here it is! The inagural post. I have not been particularly good at journalling or keeping a diary in the past. I start off really well and then it fades away after the excitment dies down. I guess that is how most of my life is really. But more importantly that is how my weightloss journey has been. I start off ready willing and able, and when the excitment wears off, I become lax, lazy and bored.

Well welcome to the new me!!! Something clicked, something happened. I think the honest truth is I got pissed off! I have had enough of looking at a fat behind, I have had enough of knowing I should not be eating certain things but do it anyway and I have had enough of knowing there is a fabulously talented, smart, funny, charming individual inside me screaming to come out. For far too long the comfort of the fat girl has been dominant. I could blame everything that ever happened to me on being fat. And it was reason enough to stay fat. Because then I was not accountable.

Today.... I want to be accountable. I want to know that when I achieve something it is because I deserve it and not because I think people feel sorry for the fat girl. I am a dreamer and have big ones. I want to live in Las Vegas and work as a performer. I want to get back onto the stage and do what I know I do best. I want to know that I have given it my all and not made excuses day in day out. Im ready...Im scared....Im nervous....Im willing to learn from mistakes...but I am ready.